May 26, 2014 - 8:37 PM
I feel sick. So fucking sick. I don’t now what to do right now. I’ll show you this later but I just need to tell you somehow. I’m writing this to show you my intention of telling you but my reasoning as to why I need to wait. I will tell you when the time is right because I can’t hide anything from you and I cannot talk behind your back.
Please, hear me out. I’m not telling you when it’s happening right now because you need to focus on your studies rather than worrying about this drama. Just please, know that I WANT to tell you. But I can’t distract you or ruin your mood right now.
I received a text from Liezl at 8:35 PM. She asked me if I could talk.
The day we went to the Garden, she texted me too but I ignored her. She texted me long after she texted you, obviously. At 1:09 PM she said “Question, are you hanging out with anyone or is it just you and your grandmas/mom or whatever? Or are you sleeping like you always are? -__-“ Then at 4:33 PM she said “Psh fine then don’t reply bitch!”
Then I reluctantly said “Hi. I’m sorry, I can’t talk right now. I’m stuck at my moms bank and I don’t have my charger. I’ll ttyl though. Hope all is well.” I had my charger, obviously too, but I lied because I couldn’t bare talking to her after what happened between us because of it.
Keep in mind that you are the one she texted first.
Now I don’t know what to do, wurdo.. I don’t want to talk to her now. I don’t want her to text me after all of this that has happened. This isn’t right. I should tell you RIGHT now! But you’re looking through your Bio notes… That’s more important right now. Especially since it’s such a huge test and it’s heavy material. This drama is the last thing you need on your plate right now.
Here’s what I told her:”A little bit. I may text slow just a heads up. What is up.” She replied: “Oh really? How come?” So I said “Helping Raiza with a study guide.” And she said “Oh it’s ok nevermind. I got this.”
I may not know what’s right all the time but I know that your studies come first… Right? Please, I’m trying my best. I’m being truthful. I’m being honest. I’m leaving this here for later so that you know damn well that I want to tell you. Okay? Please.